Silence. Waiting on You.

When does waiting you You, become saying no to moving in You?

Lord, we sit in this home. This shelter you provided. You gave it to us. Is it my fear saying leave? Is it my fear turning me from your word? Every logical thing says stay. Yet, my heart says leave. To where? Is that you? I don't know. Perhaps, walking in faith that you have us, is simply the answer. That you will always have cover for us. What we need, yes. Yet...

Still unwilling to give all to you. Trust all in you. Wanting a safeguard. Just in case.

This battle of flesh and safety. Faith and giving it all for you. Thank you for it. I know NOT what will come of this. But it is written that you can make what was meant for harm, for our good and your glory. Where ever we find ourselves, you are already there. Trust that. Trust. Trust the bridge builder. Bless us with confidence, Lord. Banish anxiety. Let our future grow in you, as your will be done for your glory.

Lord I am scared. Let me not hide it. Let me give it to you. Let this fear leave and faith in You grow. 

Thank you Lord, for this uncertain time.
Thank you for these milestone days in which we pass time to mark with you.
Thank you for the people you have placed in my path, seemingly so distant, and hearts so close.
Thank you for the financial woes, for they show promise of growth in your future.
Your hand in all deeds. Thank you for the provision that is surely meant to touch hearts and bring them to You.
Lord, I thank you and today Lord I ask you to bless us, abundantly. Let us do more for you, enlarge my hearts, be always with me, that I may be a gentle vessel of your love, grace and mercy. Let this year be marked by Your miracles.

I'm scared.

Fear riddles me.

I know I mus move forward in faith.

He is faithful.

He has always provided. Not in ways I want. Expect. Not in easily acceptable answers.

Always provided.


I feel alone. And yet I KNOW he is here.

Holding us in his hand.

Guiding us. Waiting on me.

Fear freezes me.

Faith, his faith, gives me strength. Only his.

So I must sink into Him. Into his word and give thanks.

Thanks for the house he provided over our heads.

Thanks for the small balance left, for through struggle and pain will come growth. Growth in him, if I give it all to him. Move forward. Stay in his word.

Thank you for even the $30 left in the account.

Thank you for the motivation to find life in this. Somehow someway.

Thank you Lord for providing always.

Thank you Lord for this family you have built. This heart you have bonded me to. Thank you.

Lord, forgive me of my sins. My lying ways. Let me make it right. Have Mercy on me oh Lord and I will give you the Glory. All Glory to you Jesus Christ my savior. I'm bow and sob and lay it out here before you. Let me be weak and foolish. Let only your strength and wisdom flow through. Let us bless others with your grace and mercy. Lord I thank you for providing, what I do not know you have done. Thank you for the patience to endure and receive your gifts. Thank you Lord, for allowing me to give you glory.